Good Morning fellow Lightworkers!

So far 2020 has turned out to be quite an interesting year. As of now, we are all under quarantine. This whole entire situation has pushed us out of our comfort zones in many ways. Many of us are working from home remotely, some of us have lost jobs entirely. Parents all around the world are home schooling their children and learning to experience the life of a teacher. We are all out of our comfort zones and yet we all express our reactions to this situation differently.

Since the beginning of 2020, the angels gave me a heads up that this was going to be the year of great change. Now, mostly when they provide me with this type of guidance I only look at it from my perspective. They have corrected me many times and told me to look at the messages of guidance and wisdom I receive from a global perspective. So here I am, stepping WAY out of my comfort zone and sharing their message with you.

Now, please keep in mind that I pray daily. I also meditate and have always had intuitive insight. The Angelic Realm is very real, and they communicate to those of us who wish to communicate with them. I’ve communicated with them since I can remember. I was the one person who actually had an imaginary friend that was 10-12 feet tall and always had a slight glow about them. They were loving and kind. They played me with me when no one else would and they were there for me when I needed them most.

When this whole pandemic began, I was guided intuitively to sit in my mediation cushion and just breathe. It was in that moment that I began what I would call a MAJOR download of massive consciousness. In layman’s terms I was being given instruction on how to share their messages with you despite my wishes of wanting to remain quiet about my gifts. So per their instruction, I began doing intuitive readings again, I created my own podcast where I share guided information on the angels, their messages weekly. Now, I’m here sharing this while in the background I am cringing.

This morning’s message is one that I was instructed to step aside and let them write through me so I channeled their message. Archangel Metatron has been the primary speaker lately so here is the message. I ask that you take with you what you want and leave the rest behind.

Dear Lightbeings,

This is Archangel Metatron, the angel of life. I come to you today through Eileen to deliver our message of oneness. Everything is connected to one ultimate source. The source, the ONE is constant, and stable in its being never wavering. It always is, and always was. When creating, it expands itself and whatever it touches it creates another being of itself; a being from the same source. You are all a part of that source. Source lives within you; but you’ve simply lost your way of hearing, seeing, feeling, or knowing it is there. Source and its love and compassion for you is all around you. It’s in the tress, the birds that chirp every morning. It’s in the breeze that brushes across your face. It’s in your parents, children and family. It’s in the man that sits at the corner of the street begging for change.

It’s in every person, every being, both human and animal on this plane. Source whispers to you daily. Are you listening? You are all made in the likeness of this source, you simply cannot see it because you’re not seeing the truth of who you are. Source and the Angels are with you always. Now is the time to connect to the source that is deep within you. To connect with this beautiful, brilliant, golden light of source you simply start by looking within. Look deep within your heart and honor that part of you that is source. Let go of your fears about fitting in with others. Let go of the fears of judgement. Stop living your life through the eyes of other peoples perceptions. Feel the light source within you, hear the light source within you, see that light source, and BE that light source.

Everyone that is around you, is a part of you for you all are a part of the same source. Everyone is on the same path of finding their inner truth. You are all on the same path of ONENESS. Source accepts, loves, and cherishes you all equally. Source doesn’t see the color of your skin, your religious beliefs, your political choice, the person you love, how much you make, or where you come from. To source you are all the same. You are a part of the ONE. Remove the labels you have put on yourselves. Remove the chains and bonds you have put on yourselves. In this world, in this dimension labels only exist because you perceive them to be a part of your identity.

You are all of the same likeness, the same love, the same of everything. Listen to the inner calling of your heart. Listen to the whispers given to you by source, listen to its message of love and oneness. Everything has value. You have value. You are worthy of all that source provides and offers. Source is ETERNAL. Source is whatever you wish to call it, God, Buddha, Universe, Angels, etc. Source is one and the same to all. No matter what you call it, or align with know that source loves you. Source is always with you and there for you. Source is both outside of you and inside of you.

Source is both a part of you and is you. So in this time of need, of uncertainty, of discomfort listen to that inner whisper deep within you. Listen with your ears, your eyes and your heart. That calling, that whisper is where source reminds you that you are not alone. Source is here in the present, in the now waiting for you to hear its call. You are all one part of the whole, that whole is part of the source. Source is part of all that is and was, you are a part of that source expanded in both likeness and love being expressed in different ways. Acknowledge your differences but listen to your likeness and respond with LOVE.



There is only light

Every time we enter a new year we get excited about new beginnings, new adventures, and for some of us a fresh start. For me 2020 is a year of balance and creativity, imagine my surprise when I ask for divine guidance and get a message I’ve heard before and felt I was being played. “there is only light”, was the card I drew and while I sat in my chair and looked at it I couldn’t help but feel disappointed at the message.

How often has this happened to us, we get excited about a fresh start and now that a new year has begun we hope for something different yet the message of divine wisdom is the same as the year before? Can you feel where I’m going with this? Despite being disappointed with the card I drew, I sat quietly and held it in my hand and asked for further clarification.

Everything in this universe and life contains a piece of light. The light is the source of all that we seek. How many times do we fumble around in the dark, looking or searching before we THINK to turn on the light? The truth is the light was never turned off, we simply couldn’t see it, even though it was there all along. This right here brings back so many memories of 2019 when I felt I was alone in the dark. When we struggle, or stumble we feel isolated and alone and many times we simply ask to be shown the way.

We simply ask for a light, but what exactly is the light and where does it come from? Many people fear the dark but the dark is simply the opposite of the light. I call my dark the unknown. The light is what we know and what we have experienced, it is what we often feel comfortable with and is considered safe. The dark is needed in order for light to exist. It’s a balance for one cannot be without the other.

You are never without the light, and you are never without the dark. When situations, circumstances, and life align in your path it is because you are in perfect balance in both light and dark – (the known and the unknown). You are both light and dark, you know part of yourself within this life and there are parts of you that are still unknown. This makes me feel better about how to face so much of 2020 that is still unknown to me. So I’m sure by now you’re asking, why am I sharing this with you.

Well, remember my question earlier about what and where the light comes from? The light is everything around and within you. It comes from the one place that ignites both passion and desire in our bodies, our heart center. Your heart is the center of where the light lives. But do not be fooled for darkness dwells there to. When your in the dark it doesn’t mean you’re lost of fallen off course. It simply means you must find the source within to light your way. Source is your happiness and joy, what creates your spark everyday? What brings you joy? Always remember as above, so below (light, dark – known – unknown). That which you see, you are, and that which you are, you see. 


Welcome to the light.

The endless journey

Six years ago when I started a weight loss journey I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I believed that everything would be simple and quick. Now, here I am in 2016 and I am still not where I want to be in life. I’m especially not where I want to be weight wise but in reality I’m closer than I was six years ago. 

When I started this journey I didn’t realize that life would get in the way. Life happened and before I knew it my priorities had changed. This happens to all of us at some point in our life and when it does we usually aren’t prepared for it. In fact sometimes it just sneaks up on you like a stealth ninja in the dead of night. 

Back then my goal of losing weight was simply for all of the wrong reasons. I was convinced that losing weight would solve all of my problems in life but I’ve now learned that isn’t the case. My dream of being thin was driven by a desire to fit in and be what everyone wanted me to be. Each time I tried something new I’d lose interest and fall off the bandwagon. 

Now that I look back on my journey I realized that I never succeeded because my desires for losing weight were misconstrued. I had no passion for wanting to better myself. I had no desire to do this for me, it more for pleasing someone else. The love for myself was non-existent. Somewhere along the way my desire for thinness faded and my desire for wellness began. 

I want to develop a life of health and wellness and share it with the world. I want to empower, inspire, encourage and motivate others to create a balance in their life that promotes a sense of well-being. I might be starting fresh today but I’ve learned that this journey is far from over. The truth is, it’s just begun. I invite you to join me as I share with you my journey to greatness. I don’t know what that is yet but when I get there I’ll know. For now remember to Be Awesome, Challenge Yourself and more importantly Believe In Yourself!  

The Warrior Princess

It all began one night in April when I was sitting in a movie theater. This was no ordinary theater because instead of one screen there were two. The screen on the left was the first to reveal its images to me. The screen started out dark and small but then slowly the image began to appear. The screen and image looked fuzzy, distorted and out of focus. It wasn’t clear or visible, making it difficult to see. With some effort I began to see a sad woman on the screen. The image was in different shades of blacks and grays with some occasional white mixed in.  The woman looked like she’d been through hell and back and the turmoil she’d endured was oozing off the screen. Just looking at her made me feel tired, afraid and sad for her. It was almost as if she didn’t care anymore and was ready to end it all. Her will to continue had given out and she was begging for someone to end it all. The look in her eyes were of sadness and grief and it soon became too much to bear. The image of her began to fade and as she was consumed by the darkness I prayed that she’d be okay. 

As soon as the screen on the left disappeared the screen on the right began to appear. At first it started out small with a tiny white light at the center of the screen but just like fire that touches air it spread and illuminated the entire screen. The light was so vibrant that I immediately knew it would be clear and visible for all to see. The image before me was detailed and bright that it took my eyes a while to adjust to see everything on the screen. As I was about to focus on the details an image of a woman began to appear. She stood tall, with long brown hair and deep, captivating brown eyes full of love. She smiled from ear to ear and you could sense and feel love and genuine care. Her smile brightened up the room and being within her presence made you feel welcomed and a sense of being at home. She was far more beautiful than anyone I had ever seen or known. She wore a crown above her head and while you understood her to have power you knew she never used it to get ahead. She wore a beautiful white and gold gown made of lace that fit her body perfectly, capturing every curve and every muscle. The gown itself made her look angelic, delicate and fragile but within the background you could see her armor, shield and sword. Although she looked feminine she was in no way weak. She was strong and capable of battling her own obstacles and wasn’t afraid of getting down and dirty with the boys. She looked like royalty but she had the power and strength of a great warrior. She was not afraid of anything and as I sat in my seat within the theater I couldn’t help but gaze at her image up on the screen. Her image and essence brought tears to my eyes and as I looked at both screens I soon began to realize the difference and meaning behind each screen. 

The image and screen on the left represented how I viewed myself or the old me and the image and screen on the right represented how others viewed me or the new me. The images were total opposites and contrasts of one another. The image on the left felt familiar and more within my comfort zone, while the image on the right made me fearful. The first thought that entered my mind when looking at the image on the right made me think, “This can’t be right.” As I sat in silence staring at the screen the woman within the screen beckoned me to join her. As I slowly stood up and made my way to the front of the theater . As I stood in front of the screen I knew that I wanted to get to know her. I allowed myself the opportunity to just try so I reached out my hand to touch the screen. As I reached out and touched the screen I saw my hand go through and I was pulled deep within the image. As I looked around I found myself within the image on the screen. Being in that space with this glorious, magnificent woman was amazing. It felt so warm and inviting that I couldn’t help but be envious of this woman who had it all. She had beauty, power, strength, a sense of self-worth, a sense of belonging and above all else she was loved, and cared for and happy. She stood in silence in front of me and when our eyes locked she smiled. I was expecting her to be angry for invading her space but before I could apologize she spoke. 

“I am a part of you that has been hiding for a very long time. It is time to set me free. I knew my time would come when the right people showed up in your life.” 

She immediately wanted to hug me but I was to shocked so I stopped her. It was hard for me to understand what she had just said as I knew there was no way this powerful woman could be a part of me. Again she stood in silence and smiled at me and said, 

“They all love you and because of their love and nurturing I have been set free. All you have to do is accept me.” 

I was in shock and allowed the tears to flow. She approached me once more and this time I allowed her to embrace me. As I felt her touch I felt loved, warm and at peace. I welcomed her warmth and embrace and felt a swelling in my heart. When I opened my eyes I noticed she was gone. As I began looking around I noticed I was now wearing her soft, flowing, white-gold lace gown. As I began to panic I heard a soft whisper within my ear, 

“I am still here but I now reside within you. You are me and I am you. Who you were is no longer who you are. Who you are is who you will be. You are the Warrior Princess.”

We all have moments in life that mold us into who we are meant to be. Sometimes those moments are people who show up at our door, or sometimes they are events and situations. No matter where you are in life, remember that who you are isn’t absolute. Who you are meant to be will always show up and that my friends is when your true potential, worth and growth begins. Warrior Princess

Art by: Eve Ventrue


Darkness & Light 

Life is full of lessons. Lessons on how to grow, how to be, how to love and how to live but do we listen? Listening can be hard, especially when we are in the middle of that lesson. Sometimes it’s easier to complain about our circumstances or situations than to look at the lesson and move on. There is one lesson I’ve struggled with and it has been following me around for years. I’ve sort of labeled it my life’s theme work but despite each obstacle, encounter or situation  I never truly grasped the entire lesson. Was I blind to its teachings or was I choosing to be blind? 

Sometimes asking ourselves those hard questions is something we would rather avoid because hearing the truth is so much different from knowing the truth. You see when you hear the truth it ignites your inner desire to expand and grow. Sometimes when you hear the truth it hurts but once you’ve heard it, something clicks. Knowing the truth is different in the aspect that a part of you knows but it’s easy to dismiss. In my case it was so much easier to ignore until I heard it and reality set in. 

My reality was death. A slow, miserable death full of pain, sadness and mental torture. For years I blamed others for causing me pain, but I was the one that kept inflicting the pain. I played victim to my circumstances and situations but I was the abuser in every situation. I was the reason for my pain. I was the reason for my sadness. Knowing this was easy but hearing it was hard. It was hard because it was the truth and a cold, bitter hard truth at that. The truth was I didn’t and couldn’t love myself enough to save myself from my own self-inflicted pain. The bitter truth was, I was living through the eyes of my past and through those eyes I deserved to be there. 

Knowing this was my darkness and my secret. I thought that I was moving along just fine until one day the truth made itself heard. Hearing it first hand was my light and salvation. It was almost as if the light had switched on and it all made sense. We can’t change the situations or circumstances in our life but we can choose to see it through darkness or light. You cannot have one without the other. You need darkness in order to experience the light and you need light in order to understand the darkness. Both are a part of the lesson at hand and both teaching you something in the end. Knowing the darkness is part of the journey but once you hear the light that is when your journey truly begins. 


The Road

On occasion I find my mind wandering off in a distant horizon, focusing on something far beyond my reach. As an intuitive, I am one who can feel, see, hear and know things that I would normally not know. The funny thing is I can often times only do that for others. The vision to see the obstacles in my life are often times difficult and are usually only known when I’m knee deep in mud. This is the life of an intuitive, a life of many experiences, life lessons and roads. For many years I tried to walk away from my gift, accepting it was not an option. To accept the gift meant a life of service and a life of so many lessons, experiences and roads that needed to be traveled. 

When this road presented itself to me it scared me out of my mind and my gut instinct was to run as fast as I could in another direction. You see, not everyone welcomes the gift or the road they are on. They struggle and fight it with all of their might but yet it still continues and often times never ends. Some accept the gift and accept it willingly and travel down the road allowing it to mold them into who they are meant to be. Whether you accept it or not you still get the lessons, experiences and journey like everyone else just in a different way. Now that I’ve accepted my gift and have decided to travel down this road I’ve been given the task of helping others on their road. 

Now that I’m on my road I realize that there was a purpose for the struggle. God had a plan, and my willingness to fight the road allowed me the privilege of experiencing a journey that would one day help someone else. Maybe that someone else is YOU! Many of us struggle to accept things in our life that we often times don’t understand. We only see the smaller pieces in front of us, almost as if we have blinders on. This lack of vision makes us question our motives, desires and instincts. Making us lose trust and confidence in our own judgement of where we are going on this road called life. 

As soon as I traveled down my road I noticed the struggle right away. It made me question my own gift and I lost the confidence and trust in myself. Because of this I walked away from the gift and the road a second time only to be catapulted back into the road some time later. While I was off the road my gift became quiet and still. In the silence I was able to see and hear things I never thought possible. I was able to understand the greater purpose behind it all and when it finally clicked I resumed my travels down the road. I realized that the reason I walked away from it all was because of the exhaustion I felt in having to travel down a road into the unknown. Not knowing where I was going or where the road was leading me shook me to the core.

No matter what I felt my experiences and lessons always brought me back to the road. Again I accepted the road and this time made a promise to stay within it’s path and experience it all as if it were the only road. The light that once shone bright in my heart had been re-kindled once more. I can’t explain the feeling I get when I am on my road but I know in my heart that what is next for me on my journey is something that will become legend. The same is true for all of you. There is no right or wrong way, there is just a road. A road that you must travel on to get you to the next road and so forth. While you have no idea what will be on that road or where it will lead you, a part of you knows you must follow it so you take it without question. 

Many of us look for a road map in hopes that it will point out the dangers that lay ahead. Sometimes we get frustrated and concerned that we are lost and can’t find our way even though we have no idea where we are headed. We don’t need a map to find our way, nor do we need it to find where we are. We are because we are and no matter where that road leads you, you know in your heart that you are meant to be in the exact place you are. Your road map lives within you, always leading and pushing you in the direction you are meant to be in. There are experiences and lessons on that road that will help you become the person you are meant to be. Yes, the road will be dangerous, confusing and sometimes hard but the map always points you in the right direction. In moments when you feel lost it only feels that way because you’re fighting the road and it’s lessons. The map within you always redirects you because you’ve never left the road. 

If you knew what was ahead for you on that road would still take the same path? If you knew what was in store for you at the end of the road would you still makes the same choices? Many of us would stop and rethink things but then we wouldn’t get the experiences or lessons we needed while on the road. When I stopped trying to navigate my way through life, or in this case when I stopped trying to control it I found so much more beauty, happiness and freedom in the walk of that single road. No one else can navigate you on that road, you just have to allow it to move you in the direction you’re meant to go and follow the road. The choices of taking the left or the right fork is yours to make but it doesn’t matter. You take the road and accept what comes, learning from what it teaches you and experiencing the journey. No road is the same, as is life. I can’t tell you how to live your life, nor can I make your road easier but I can help guide you by giving you the courage to embrace the unknown. The best advice I have for you is to follow your road and light. Be the master of your own road and enjoy the journey. No matter the choices or the travels on that road they all lead you to the same destination. The only difference is your experiences and lessons will change. Once you’re on that road and the journey begins and the road ends, it takes you on an even bigger road with a greater journey ahead. 


All Roads lead to Rome; and Rome my friends is your destiny!

All Roads Lead to Rome

All Roads Lead to Rome


The Journey and Expectations


I’ve been on a weight loss journey for nearly a year and half now. I can easily say it has been one of the hardest journeys of my life. When I first sighed up for this journey I never thought I’d have to deal with heartache, frustration, anger, loss, failure and expectations. I knew I’d face road blocks but no one ever said I’d face them more than once.

Now here is something interesting for all of you to know. I am a certified Weight Release Energetix® coach. I primarily deal with the emotional or empathy part of the weight because let’s face it, a lot of is turn to food as comfort. During my training I lost over 60 pounds and was beside myself. This was all done by simply eating clean and mindful while dealing with the emotional reasons I turned to food.

This was done without the help of exercise but I needed and wanted to tone up certain areas of my body. So like any other individual wanting a healthier lifestyle I started working out. It was exhausting, frustrating and rewarding all at the same time. Here is what I’ve struggled with the most.

Expectations from others and yourself can often time hinder your progress. Everyone expects to see some form of results when they exert themselves but when you don’t you start to doubt and feel failure breathing down your neck. I knew and expected to gain muscle but it didn’t prepare me for having to face a fear of the dreaded scale.

Once the muscle started packing on the numbers were going up and I was panicking. I’ve always believed that when you work hard and exercise you’re going to lose pounds. I expected to see that but it never came. Then as if my own expectations not being met were not enough I had to face the expectations of others. All of a sudden it was as if I was being graded on my progress. Other people expected me to be at a certain place that eventually I began to believe it and I owned it as a truth.

After accepting and owning their expectations of my progress I became a failure in their eyes as well as my own. Somehow along the way I lost the passion and purpose for why I started the journey in the first place. I questioned my efforts daily and instead of seeing the small milestones I had accomplished I dismissed them. I was no longer looking at myself through my own eyes. I was only seeing the reflection of what others expected of me that my own identity got lost.

Here is my advice if you seem to be struggling with your journey or path.

1. See yourself through your own eyes
Never forget that you are special, magnificent, amazing and a miracle all wrapped up in a package called a body. When you look at yourself daily be sure that you see yourself clearly. You are both ally and challenger to yourself. Choose carefully.

2. Acknowledge the WINS
No matter how small they are acknowledge them. When you recognize something amazing write it down in a journal. You can then use this as a reminder on days when you need extra encouragement.

3. Never compare
Everyone is different and the journeys are never the same. The moment you start to compare your progress to someone else’s is the moment you set yourself up for failure. A wise person once said,

All roads lead to Rome, the journeys just a bit different.

4. Honor yourself
Never be hard on yourself. Love yourself when you need to, celebrate when you can and challenge yourself. Listen to your heart, mind, body and spirit. Sometimes you will need to rest and know that it’s okay.

Everything in life is a journey and it’s meant to teach us many things. Enjoy it, live it and more importantly LOVE it. Remember why you’re doing what you’re doing, refocus if you need to but never do it for the wrong reasons.

The true definition of Beauty


According to Merriam Webster’s dictionary beauty is defined as “the quality or aggregate of qualities in a person or thing that gives pleasure to the senses or pleasurably exalts the mind or spirit”.

Growing up I was lead to believe that beauty was superficial, it was something we all tried to obtain but many of us were unsuccessful. For years I believed that I was not one of the beautiful ones and a part of me felt that beauty was only bestowed upon those God favored.

My perception of beauty at that time was distorted by lies I’d been told by family and friends. Lies that in the end I owned and believed. In their eyes I was not perfect and no matter how hard I tried to live up to their expectations I just couldn’t reach their idea of beauty or perfection. It seemed I was doomed for failure and at the age of fifteen I knew I would never be beautiful.

To be so young and to have so much hate for oneself is hard, but it happens everyday. We live in a world where beauty is defined by image and perfection. If you don’t look a certain way, or wear certain clothes then you aren’t considered to be beautiful. So many women want to be like the models in the magazines because in everyone’s eyes perfection is beauty.

I’ve been very blessed to have had many experiences and people in my life who have taught me more about life than I’d care to admit but without them I wouldn’t be here. Some of the lessons I’ve learned have been for the better and some have taken longer to understand and acknowledge. Regardless of the time I learned what I needed too. Now that I’m 36 years of age I can officially say that what I once believed to be true about beauty no longer applies.

Within the last two years I’ve discovered who I truly am and while at first it seemed odd and out of place I felt a stirring deep within my heart. Something inside me told me to keep going, to keep digging deeper until finally I’d hit the topic of beauty. This was an area in my life that needed changing. Now I won’t bore you with the details on how this came to be but I will tell you what I’ve learned. I’m grateful for the opportunity to share this with you because if I can make a difference somehow, someway then change in this world doesn’t seem so hard.

We’ve all heard the many phrases around beauty such as, “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,” and “Beauty is skin deep”. The truth is these phrases mean nothing to the individual who is too busy trying to live up to unattainable standards. By doing so you set yourself up for failure and it makes everyone feel inadequate and imperfect. The eye of the beholder starts with YOU. You have to look deep within yourself to find the beauty because beauty isn’t on the surface, it’s skin deep.

My definition of beauty is my radiant smile, my infectious laughter and my welcoming personality. I’m beautiful because I love everyone unconditionally. I have no enemies and I’m the most social person you will ever meet. I’m beautiful because I’m the girl that will try to make you laugh when you’ve had a bad day. I’ll buy your lunch when you forget your cash, and I’ll even offer you the clothes on my back because I believe everyone needs someone to care.

My imperfections are what make me beautiful because it’s what makes me different from everyone else. We all have beauty within us we just can’t see it. We are preconditioned to believe that beauty is something you earn or attain but you can’t earn or attain what you were born with. The beauty we seek is there waiting to be seen and you start by letting go of what others think of you. Let go of the idea of trying to live up to everyone else’s expectations and create your own.

Be who you are authentically, accept everything about you and love your imperfections. Beauty is a feeling that is held deep inside you. It is a beating deep within your heart that no one can take from you. Instead of looking at what’s wrong with you, look at everything that makes you unique.

For the next ten days I challenge you to write down three things that make you unique. Be proud of those qualities as they are the reason you were created. Your uniqueness brings beauty into this world and that my friends makes you beautiful!